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MikeKevin

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Likewise, 60 years of unanswered prayers has me questioning my faith in God and the Bible's promises. God said he is not a man that he should lie and to test the spirit. I have, and it failed me. Over and over and over again. Each time I pray, and nothing happens it chips away at my already less than mustard seed faith. I don't need words or empty promises. I need action to encourage me to continue in believing. I mean no offense, but what I'm about to say is true. I could pray to a stone statue of the Greek God Appolo and get as much from that as I do from the biblical God or Christ. At one-point ancient folk believed in such Gods, but now we see it as mythology. I'm starting to see the biblical God as mythology. When I look back in my life, I don't see God thus I have no foundation. Much like a when a house built on sand gets washed away when the rain comes, I have no resistance to temptation. I figure, if there if the promises in the bible don't show themselves true then all of the bible must be fake and what am I resisting for? It's a tricky spiral. I need God, if he exists and is real and cares, to show me. Real tangible life changing evidence so that I might believe. Heck, even the Apostle Paul was on a path of persecuting Christians and didn't believe in Christ until Jesus appeared to him on the road to Damascus. It's been a horrible life of stagnation, loneliness, broken dreams, hopelessness, straddling the poverty line, health issues, enemies seemingly blessed while I am cursed, and not a friend in the world. Misery. If God doesn't reveal himself to me, I fear I can no longer believe. Please pray for me that he shows me his love and truth lest I perish. My faith is on fumes, and I can't hand on any longer. I simply can't believe in such overwhelming circumstances. It's been too much, too hard, for too long.

Received: March 11, 2024